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I remember her beginning to cry. She asked me, “Before you leave would you mind to watch this video?” So she comes in and puts this video on and leaves a little box of Kleenexes next to me.
I was supposed to be the watcher, “the watchman” to make sure that no one comes in so they wouldn’t get in trouble.
I was so hungry for affirmation as a woman that there was a lot of short term relationships.
"Suddenly I felt the real power and presence of God. It was like fire and electricity shooting through my body."
I knew better. I was raised better, but once I started and the more I did it the deeper into it I got.
I tried to live for the Lord and the Devil at the same time. I was straddling the fence, so to speak. It doesn’t work. I thought, “I can’t live it.”
When I was sick and by myself at home I would think, “What exactly is the purpose in this. What are you doing? You’re still alone. You still have nobody in your life. You still have that void. So what you’re searching for is ...
When a child grows up thinking abuse is what love from a parent looks like, you don’t know it’s so horrifically wrong until someone else tells you.
I made a choice. That day a healing process started in my life. Now I can look back and say, “Wow.