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Every relationship, every encounter, would get worse, would become more perverted, more faceless, more emotionless. I had been with countless men. I could fill up a notebook full of the men that I had been with.
"My grandfather was very perverted. He did things and said things only to me, and it was kept a secret."
God loves you and he cares about you; and he wants the best for you. You find freedom in his love through surrendering to him.
I was addicted to pornography, I was addicted to masturbation. I was addicted to sex. I was also a heterosexual male
I remember of walking on a bridge in New York City, hearing an evil presence. As I looked over the edge of the bridge I heard a voice say, “Jump. It’ll be all over.”
"By the time I was in puberty I had one foot in the homosexual world, one in the heterosexual world, and I didn’t know how I got there."
"Suddenly I felt the real power and presence of God. It was like fire and electricity shooting through my body."
I tried to live for the Lord and the Devil at the same time. I was straddling the fence, so to speak. It doesn’t work. I thought, “I can’t live it.”
When I was sick and by myself at home I would think, “What exactly is the purpose in this. What are you doing? You’re still alone. You still have nobody in your life. You still have that void. So what you’re searching for is ...
I had gotten so far down I was eating out of a garbage can. A pastor came to the campsite where I was living and said, ‘Would you like to go to church today?’ I said, “Well, not particularly, not really.” When he said, “We're...